Dear Dealer

A Memoir
For readers of Beautiful Boy and The Night of the Gun, this gripping memoir explores addiction, grief, and family trauma as one woman goes in search of her sisters killer.

In the summer of 2015, Nadia Bowerss beloved older sister, Sashaa social worker and Ivy League graduatewas found in her car in a restaurant parking lot in their hometown outside New Haven, Connecticut, dead from a fentanyl overdose. Plunged into grief, equipped with Sashas phone, and just weeks from giving birth to her first child, Nadia began to investigate her sisters shadow life: who sold Sasha the drugs that killed her? Did they know each other well? Did the dealer have any idea who Sasha was, outside of addiction?

Expanding on her viral 2018 This American Life essay of the same namea letter to this imagined dealerBowerss memoir is a love letter, a diary, and a quest in search of the dealers identity, as